David Foster Wallace was a writer who wrote for other
writers. In this way his fiction is
analogous to jazz. It's been said by
the musicians themselves that jazz is a concert-level music played by virtuosi
for other virtuosi. It isn't, however,
necessary to be a jazz musician to appreciate jazz. Nor is it necessary to be a writer to appreciate David Foster
Wallace.
But it
helps. Critical writing about Wallace's
work is laced with academic terms like Post-Modernism and Post-Post
Modernism. Professors of literature
struggle to place Wallace in a
"school" of writing, as if that will make them more comfortable with
a literature that breaks every rule of writing yet succeeds in communicating
with anyone willing to put a little effort into reading his work.
I
suspect that some writers read Wallace without enjoying the experience. They read him just to have read him. To enjoy Wallace is pure delight. Wallace
observed human and societal behavior with the skill of a world-class brain
surgeon. He was then able to translate
his observations into a prose that was fiendishly complex but thoroughly
entertaining. The fact that his
vocabulary was gargantuan, that his ideas were informed by deep studies in
philosophy, mathematics, linguistics and semiotics does not make his prose
incomprehensible. It just makes it
challenging, and ultimately rewarding.
In my
opinion, biographer D.T. Max got it right.
He gave us a view of DFW as a human being. He didn't psychoanalyze, he didn't build up the suicide to
promote a spurious climax. David Foster
Wallace's suicide came at the end, that's all.
He was a haunted man and there is no story of childhood abuse upon which
to build the scaffolding of his pathology.
He had a normal, stable and reasonably happy childhood. He had an illness. It emerged in adolescence and it caused him untold
suffering. It eventually proved fatal.
Biographer
D.T. Max gives us the impression that if Wallace was haunted by one thing more
than anything else it was the failure of a novel to emerge after the hit of
INFINITE JEST. Wallace put a lot of
pressure on himself; he felt he was expected to produce another masterpiece. He was writing a lot of non-fiction, taking
plum assignments from The New Yorker, Esquire and Rolling Stone. His novel in progress, THE PALE KING,
accumulated in boxes of manuscript paper and on floppies and computer drives. Hundreds of sheets of paper piled up but
never gelled into the novel with which Wallace struggled. It was finally published posthumously, and
generally well received.
It is so
sad. His suicide seems a matter of bad
timing. His psychiatrist had taken him off the medication Nardil and
was preparing to prescribe a more 'modern' anti-depressant. This procedure, the flushing of the old
medicine from the body, the incremental build-up of the new medication, can
take several months. During that time,
a patient suffering clinical depression can face a period of intense vulnerability. It seems that David Foster Wallace got
caught
in a pharmacological bear trap. He couldn't find a better way out. People who suffer serious depression know this aspect of its
manifestation: while it's happening it seems as though it is permanent. And, while it's happening, they will do
anything to avoid another five minutes of feeling the way they feel.
The
suicide notes are everywhere in Wallace's fiction. One of INFINITE JEST's protagonists, Hal Incandenza, said it best
(and here I paraphrase, being without a copy of the book): "If I knew I
had to feel this bad some time in the future for even a week, I would kill
myself right now."
He was
describing a plummet down the slippery walls of a deep dark well, a mood of
total despair and emptiness.
D.T.
Max wrote a beautiful biography. He enjoyed access to Wallace's family,
friends, papers and letters. He was
not worshipful. He describes Wallace's
life as one in which not much happened outside the events of his literary
world. He taught MFA classes in a
handful of universities. He got the
McArthur Grant, won other lucrative
prizes and did not have to worry about money.
He was too shy and reclusive to enjoy fame or publicity. He didn't like parties and dreaded
interviews and television appearances.
He was a private man who was very careful about establishing deep bonds
of friendship and devotion. His best
friends, it seems, were his dogs. At
the time of his death he was recently married.
He was only forty six years old.
He was just beginning what may have been the best time of his life.
I repeat...it is so sad.